Just Roxanne.

He hugged me.


today 
it was my very first time playing guitar during a praise and worship session.
i anticipated fear and anxiousness
to overwhelm me today.
in fact, i was. to be honest :p
i placed all these super negative thoughts in myself, because i judged myself from my own skills.
but God was testing my heart.
what was i actually giving Him?
my talents? my ability to play?
or
my heart? 


i pondered upon it,
until the time when i was coming to the end of the last song during worship,
only did i truly allowed God to come into me.
i was so defensive.
but then He came.
He brought comfort that NOTHING can ever compare.
a gentle lover He is, there was no stopping of His comfort and peace :)
only at that very moment, i stopped caring about what others thought of my playing.
at that brief few seconds, i was with no one but God.
face to face, one on one. His heart to mine. 
i felt Him so close. i was touched. 
it was. amazing.


yes!
i encountered Him during the last few seconds of worship,
it was so short but gosh, He felt so near. 
i knew He was there and just hugging me. so tender :')
i long for more moments like this, God.
if i passed out on this chance of playing for you today, i would've missed this chance.
You are just so so, good.


:) :) :) :)