Just Roxanne.

loading the big picture.


all this time i hardened myself to think i don't care.
but what had happened made me realized two things.
first, i did care. and in fact i care a lot.
second, i'm more clear of who u are and who i am now.


but after today, i was more reassured.
this is not yet the right time and not yet the right guy.
it is only through interactions that u can see how a person's thinking really goes.
if a relationship can only go skin deep, i wonder how long it'll last.
two person can only chat and joke. 
have that tingly and electrifying feeling when u're around each other.
is that all that really matters?
through what i experienced and felt these few days, i know He doesn't ever want me to settle for second best.
aim for the best, daughter :)


everytime i let myself slide back into my old perception of stuffs,
God not only speaks but shows me through my interaction with people.
to my future someone that i've not met yet (:
i'm yearning to be that special someone who can listen to your problems,
your endless stories and encounters with God.
your complaints and frustrations.
sharing of random bible verses. worshiping together. ahhh :)
and also who u can freely tell of the little good things God has done to u each and everyday.
and for me, i can share all my boring thoughts to you.
how God spoke to me and random inspirations from the people around me.
i can know for sure u are more than attentive.
a connection that goes beyond what words can express, what actions can ever say.
i want our relationship to be filled with God's presence.
have His fingerprints legprints all over it.
each day of our walk, we bond closer because of our love for Him. not because of the things we can do for each other by our own means and strength.
i believe in childlike love towards Daddy. 
i want myself to grow more in learning to love Him before i can ever love that someone special.
loving Him, such a big word.
and now as a student, i know i wanna give my best years to God now. serving Him with all my energy, youth and time.
and He will let me go through what i have to to make me that someone.
i'm praying for you though i've yet to know you.
let's let Him penetrate into our lives to the fullest and just grasp and imitate that love of His.
focus on what we have to.
who cares about the rest? :p


:)
Daddy says, wait.
till i meet you.