how significant your birthday is. :)

today, a special day for my dearest friend.

liao hoooi chhing. :D

it's your birthday. :)

yeah i know i've already said so much to you today.

wished you so many times.

hah.

but i'll feel itchy if i don't post something here, muahahaha ;D

well i don't really have anything much to add to the loads i've said.

but here, i'll wish you finally, with something to say from our Daddy. :)

For the promise that he would be the heir of the world was not to Abraham or to his seed through the law,

but through the righteousness of faith.

Romans 4:13

through your faith, God's gonna give you abundantly.

God sees those who waits patiently and full-heartedly.

He hears your every cry and deepest hopes and dreams

so it doesn't matter how the present may seem to you,

but the future is there and waiting.

be glad to embrace it!

God's prepared the best, for you.

i 100000% believe in that.

=)

never stop capturing beautiful seconds of your precious life.

never stop jumping for joy when u feel like it,

cry out in tears because of joy or in awe of our God,

or be yourself in your most hyper way. :D

never stop holding on to your faith,

'cause you're gonna meet with your other half soon.

i believe very SOOON. hahaha ;D

thanks for the moments and unforgettable memories that we've shared.

amazing things, big or small that we've shared.

again as i said,

thanks for being the shoulder, the ear and the best friend i could ever ask for. :D

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO THE GIRL BORN TODAY 17 YEARS AGO! :D

remember the moment when..?

counting back to the year 2007, till now.

it's been four years. four long year wes.

and now, we finally made it.

yesterday, we wrote history.

smkaa choir team, achieved victory with the sweat and time we poured out and earned.

we took on the champion of Pertandingan Koir Lagu-lagu Patriotik Peringkat Negeri Pahang !

honestly we didn't expect, and never expect this year to be any special.

we didn't even had the thought of fighting to win first place.

we just sang for the sake of it.

and for me, i sang for the last year in my secondary school. :D

before they announced the results,

we held each other's hands so tightly, until sweat was squeezed out like juice.

i couldn't bare to look, just the sound of the emcee was heard.

just at the split second before they announced the school's name,

i had a sudden wave of fear of disappointment that it was going to happen like what happened two years ago,

complete disappointment, as we aimed for champion, but came in the opposite.

i felt like exploding before that very second,

i believe we all did :D

and then drum rolls, "SEKOLAH MENENGAH ALOR AKARRRRRRR !!!!!!!!!!!!"

all of us, jumped up in unspeakable joy!

hugged, laughed, teared, sobbed.

all because of the overflowing joy that we felt.

deeply from our hearts.

we couldn't believe it.

after four years, our four year dream.

fulfilled.

and my God, i couldn't thank my dear Dad more.

my last year, and we're going to the nationals.

not too soon, not too late.

and i'll be leaving my secondary life with this once in a lifetime experience. :D

thanks to everyone,

thanks to our conductor,

thanks to our pianist,

thanks to every single team player.

without a single one of you, none of this could even become reality.

we made it to where we are now, this moment,

because of our effort.

no shortcuts.

thank you, Lord.

and next, the NATIONALS.

there'll be two rounds in the nationals.

pertandingan saringan, and finally get short-listed to go to pertandingan peringkat akhir.

it ain't gonna be easy at all.

i won't mind if we don't win at all,

because we've made it this far.

which is already a wonderful achievement.

we only have one week till we're off to the battle field.

wish us luck and blessings on next saturday and sunday.

everything is in His hands, everything controlled and lead by You.

You are the center of our team, without you nothing is possible.

SMKAA CHOIR TEAM, WILL GLORIFY YOUR NAME! :D

being positive, staying postive =)))

just a short post, before i call it a night. :))

first off, my phone is finally back on track and workable again.
thanks to my super dad. :DD
just to inform anyone who's so bored, can sms me now. hah.

and secondly,
tomorrow, 22nd of July is our choir competition.
yes OURS.
although we've not spent longer time compared to previous years to practice and practice AND practice,
but i think all of us did incredibly and outstandingly during our one week PLUS practices.
wooohoo! :D
soooo, i know we're gonna give it our very best tomorrow.
no matter what happens,
this year's my last year to sing with smkaa's choir team,
so
ONLY THE VERY BEST! :DDD

kay kay,
i ish gotta to go.
pray for us & good night (:

we're all in this, together. :)

ello, i'm roxanne.

i don't know why i'm saying that but i'm just feeling lame.

hahahh. -_-

recently there's a lot of things lining up for me to tick off my to-do list

i feel like i should be doing something, when i find myself doing the opposite.

sigh, when can i gather all my passion and finally give myself that BIG BOOST of energy to do it all?

i need, a boost.

recently,

i've also realized something about the people around me.

the people that i see everyday, or every sunday at church, or just a random stranger.

i talk to them, i laugh with them, i say 'hi' to some of them occasionally,

and i never felt anything about those little actions or i never bothered to mean it when i ask 'how are you' sometimes.

i, i don't know how to put it down to words, but i wanna say it out loud.

i feel like i've not been paying attention to the people around me at all.

i feel like even though i DO talk to them, i DO laugh with them,

but i don't know a single thing about their life.

i might never get to know what's your story from your own mouth,

but when i finally hear something from others, about you,

i can't believe a single thing.

i couldn't believe that innocent face and sweet smile i've seen was just a disguise.

and why?

when i hear stories like that, it breaks my heart.

it really, really does.

when i hear something that awful would happen to my friends, maybe not very close,

i can't believe i'm missing out on that huge chunk of your life. i feel, helpless and pitiful and sorry and.. helpless, again.

i may not even have a single idea when we're joking and laughing,

that you're trying so hard to cover your pain and hurt.

i don't know.

i want to hear your story, i want to be there for you,

and i want you to know that.

you will never be reading this, but i still wanna shout it out through space, through time, through the crowd, that i'm willing to sit down and listen.

i don't wanna have to hear it from someone else,

it may not be true.

i wanna hear it from you. so, talk to me.

just talk. i'm here to listen.

i'm referring to everyone who's anyone out there reading this blog post now.

i'm willing to listen to your side of the story.

i learned from this, to not judge anyone anymore.

because when you look at your friends or a stranger in the eye,

you can't see through their heart.

you don't know what they're going through in their home everyday, their secrets, their history, their private lives.

what do we know?

who are we to judge.

when you say someone's so arrogant and selfish,

do you know what are the odds that that person may be an orphan or just lost someone precious in their lives?

do you ever stop to think that maybe he or she is getting beaten up everyday at home?

do you know maybe she's craving for love and affection because she never had that in her broken family.

do you see the invisible scars in her life?

God sees it and there's something He wants us to learn from them.

an important lesson.

He wants us learn to love the least, the last, and the lost.

so, love.

love with the love God had given us.

sometimes it's not just about us.

don't just mention me, me, me in your prayers.

"God give ME" , "God show ME", "God let ME"

pray for others for once.

open your eyes to notice others around you.

they have a story to tell.

when you're happy and you know it, clap your hands (:

today's Sunday again!

i always loveee Sundays, other than being with God, i get to be closer with my dear mif's through Christ :))

today we got to draw on each other's faces ehem, i meant 'make-up' each other. haha!

everyone went completely wild, and unleashed their inner creativity on each other's faces.

one satisfaction is, no one was left un-beautified. LOLLL.

our mif's connections got so much closer now,

and i'm truly so touched to see that. :')

we were pulled closer to each other since our VERY FIRST MIF CAMP!

during last June holidays.

in the camp, we learned, we shared, we laughed, we went PEK CEK!, we loved and know one another more.

it was a pleasure believe me, to grow with them.

and for your pleasure, i'll take u a walk down my memory lane. haha

and show u some pictures taken teeheeee :)

sorry but the pictures are not in the correct sequence 'cause i'm too lazy to rearrange it. sigh.

receptionists. :)

the hand crafts we made to sell , we're all first timers heh ;D

this one was made by yours truly,

i know it looks horrible. D:

the station games in the second day.

i love this photo! haha

minutes before the tragedy. hah

we are the PLANETSHAKERS! shake shake, boom boom! :DD

this station master spills water at you whether u get it right or wrong haha.

SOAKING wet. :O hahaha

we have to catch her as she falls down into our arms.

a lot of trust (and also strength!) is needed. :DDD

notice my toe?

haha xD

group practice time!

Vocal Class with miss ruoxin. :DD

Drum Class with mr Seongyee. :DD

Guitar class with miss Casslina! :DD

thank u my sister for helping me out with this. hah

talk sessions by our Pastor Viccent Wong ;)

praise and worshiping our awesome God together :D

wonderful and crazy experience together

looking forward to next year's so freaking much! haha

we worked together to make this happen, & everyone did amazingly. :)

all the highest glory to our Heavenly Father!!!!!!!!! woooohoooo!!

i miss it so much i could be tearing out now. hah C:

we are all blessed and loved.

thank You. :D

i'm surer than ever.

when people you know, asks you about what you're gonna study in the future, or your ideal career, what would you say?

would you reply without hesitant, firm and sure as ever and answer the other person?
or you could be a bit taken off guard and that brief moment of "umm" or "hmm"

well, i used to be like that.
i don't know but i was.
and for some odd reasons, i don't know if it's my awkward shyness or my insecurity of my own future, i erm-ed.

BUT now,
after some incidents that happened,
starting from today onwards, i know where i'm going. and i won't be afraid to say it out loud.
'cause it's my dream and imma CATCH IT!
no matter what your response would be. (:

aaaaanyway,
going back to what happened at school recently.

we're having the annual Hari Keusahawanan this thurday,
and my class is joining! *weee*
though it's a weird combination of excitement and fear, our choice was God's choice, too.
so i believe in it.

we pretty much signed up at the latest date possible, and everything's just crammed up in one big pile of mess.
i admit that we don't have time at all to go slow and plan things through properly.
because we can't, we seriously can't.
but GOD can and that's why we're doing it. ;)

today i was very moody and stressed out over the whole thing,
i guess my expression gave everything away and scared some of you. (i'm sorry about that!)
but a very very big thank-you to HUICHING!
thank you so much, though u maybe not even realize it,
but talking to you made me feel a LOT better, really.
sometimes u can be so moody too, but when you're cheerful, you cheer everyone around you. hahaha so thank you again. :)


we can't do everything with our tiny-weeny hands and tiny-weeny knowledge,
so i need you.
i'm completely weak without you.
thank you, for giving me abundantly.
& now, bless my right hand and flood it with inspirations.
and YOUR wonderful creativity. ;))

allow me to say " HAPPY HOLIDAYS ! "

FINALLY.

mid-term behind me,
stressed out school life behind me,
studying behind me,
first term of school behind me,
half a year of 2010 ALL behind me.

ok the last statement suddenly made me feel all touchy,
considering the fact it will SOON be over.
my final year in smkaa, and half of it is already goneee.


today was also su wen's LAST day at Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Alor Akar!
wow everyone was getting all 'huggy' and 'kissy'
grabbing every last chance to bid him goodbye and wish him all the best on his way.

i didn't shook his hand, didn't bid him goodbye formally, definitely didn't hug or kiss him LOL
but as i stood behind all the crowd, oddly enough, i felt like i am actually gonna miss that crazy-can'tevenspeakmalay-fat-smalleye china guy. :D

flashing back to the first day we met him, hahaha. those memories.
how could it have been a year already?
i felt i've been missing out on a lot of things, like i was shooting like a rocket across this whole year.
but the fact was, i wasn't.
because time was shooting, not me.

so this post is for you! Mr. Xiao Su Wen.
though i know you would never read it,
BUT

i sincerely wish you the very best as you go on back to china, to your hometown. :)
and God knows when' we'll meet again,
but even if we don't or amazingly we DO,
i believe God's guiding you every step of the way,
even if you don't believe it ;)

i'll definitely keep praying for you,
and oh,


DON'T YOU DARE FORGET ANY ONE OF US!
bahahaha.
'cause we won't ever forget you.



au revoir, buddy. ;D