i don't know why i'm saying that but i'm just feeling lame.
hahahh. -_-
recently there's a lot of things lining up for me to tick off my to-do list
i feel like i should be doing something, when i find myself doing the opposite.
sigh, when can i gather all my passion and finally give myself that BIG BOOST of energy to do it all?
i need, a boost.
recently,
i've also realized something about the people around me.
the people that i see everyday, or every sunday at church, or just a random stranger.
i talk to them, i laugh with them, i say 'hi' to some of them occasionally,
and i never felt anything about those little actions or i never bothered to mean it when i ask 'how are you' sometimes.
i, i don't know how to put it down to words, but i wanna say it out loud.
i feel like i've not been paying attention to the people around me at all.
i feel like even though i DO talk to them, i DO laugh with them,
but i don't know a single thing about their life.
i might never get to know what's your story from your own mouth,
but when i finally hear something from others, about you,
i can't believe a single thing.
i couldn't believe that innocent face and sweet smile i've seen was just a disguise.
and why?
when i hear stories like that, it breaks my heart.
it really, really does.
when i hear something that awful would happen to my friends, maybe not very close,
i can't believe i'm missing out on that huge chunk of your life. i feel, helpless and pitiful and sorry and.. helpless, again.
i may not even have a single idea when we're joking and laughing,
that you're trying so hard to cover your pain and hurt.
i don't know.
i want to hear your story, i want to be there for you,
and i want you to know that.
you will never be reading this, but i still wanna shout it out through space, through time, through the crowd, that i'm willing to sit down and listen.
i don't wanna have to hear it from someone else,
it may not be true.
i wanna hear it from you. so, talk to me.
just talk. i'm here to listen.
i'm referring to everyone who's anyone out there reading this blog post now.
i'm willing to listen to your side of the story.
i learned from this, to not judge anyone anymore.
because when you look at your friends or a stranger in the eye,
you can't see through their heart.
you don't know what they're going through in their home everyday, their secrets, their history, their private lives.
what do we know?
who are we to judge.
when you say someone's so arrogant and selfish,
do you know what are the odds that that person may be an orphan or just lost someone precious in their lives?
do you ever stop to think that maybe he or she is getting beaten up everyday at home?
do you know maybe she's craving for love and affection because she never had that in her broken family.
do you see the invisible scars in her life?
God sees it and there's something He wants us to learn from them.
an important lesson.
He wants us learn to love the least, the last, and the lost.
so, love.
love with the love God had given us.
sometimes it's not just about us.
don't just mention me, me, me in your prayers.
"God give ME" , "God show ME", "God let ME"
pray for others for once.
open your eyes to notice others around you.
they have a story to tell.
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