Just Roxanne.

How silly I am and how mighty He is.


¹ If you love learning, you love the discipline that goes with it— how shortsighted to refuse correction! Proverbs 12:1

I came to this verse right after I had my little conflict with a friend.
it was more to my self pride and weakness in abiding the formats that made me stumble.
but I held bitterness in my heart and it showed through and maybe somehow hurt her too.
she corrected me. in the gentlest way possible.
but all i could hear was what a bad job i did.
i blamed myself and resented that she pointed it out.

then the warfare of the good and bad battled inside me.
let go. no. let go. no. let go. no. no. no.
but i thank God so much, that His spirit in me is stronger. and He won.
I got over it with the comfort God brought to me.
somehow i still feel bad for acting the way i did. childishly. 

and when i came home and sat down with my odj and bible, He began to speak.
and the verse above was what He showed me. how can it be so timely?
love and peace just washed over me and I was instantly lifted up.
I yearned for Him to forgive me and thanked Him at the same time. this time, He corrected me too.
I knew what i had to do. I had to clear all the confusion away. 
so i texted her and let her know i was sorry for the way i behaved. and she replied me in a joyful lighthearted way. I am so relieved :)

God is my ultimate comforter and healer. all the time.
and today my mighty Dad demonstrated His amazing timing once more as I was having time clashes for consultation and a replacement test.
long story short, I had replacement test half an hour before an important consultation with my tutor. 
i can only make it if i finished my essay assesment in half an hour's time lol which is completely impossible.
but i just surrendered to Dad and LEANED ON HIM.
i said, "i don't know how You're gonna do it, but i trust that You will."
this morning my tutor texted my friend saying, 
"sorry no time. you'll just have to find time to consult me next week."
PRAISE GOD!! WHOA!
i just couldn't giving Him thanks and knew i could sit for my test peacefully. 

He's so great.
I had pretty good grades for the assignments i got back today. all glory to Him and Him aloneeeee.
I know i'm in good hands. I just know it.
:)