Does it even matter? Yes.




Beloved

adjective

1.

greatly loved; dear to the heart.

noun

2.

a person who is greatly loved.

Ephesians 1:3-14
In Him, we were chosen before the foundation of the world, that we would be holy and blameless before Him.
In Love, we were predestined to be adopted as children through Jesus Christ to God.
In Him, we were ransomed through Christ's blood.
In Him, we were forgiven of our trespasses according to the riches of His grace, which He lavished on us.
In Him, we were made known to the mystery of His will.
In Him, we have obtained an inheritance that have been determined beforehand.
In Him, we, who had listened and believed, were sealed with the Holy Spirit of promise as God's own possession, to the praise of His glory.


now replace all the 'we' as your own name.
and read it aloud. 


do you know who you are?
do you know who you are to God?
but then again, does it even matter what God thinks of me?


yes, it does.
it matters a lot.
why would He even go through all the trouble just to save the helpless us?
why would anyone do that?


the answer is simple.
because you are His beloved.
dear to the heart.
and greatly loved.
don't you ever think any lesser of yourself.
you belong to Him and He. loves. you.
and that fact will never change.
:)

OI ASK ME LA

"Question your lecturers! Question the way things are run. Question your education. Question the information you receive. Don't just sit and take it all in. This is your education and I want you to argue with me. I'll grade you up for doing so. Spark my thinking!"

so many new things.

i'm loving this History of Arts class already! :D

the 8th of june and beyond.


i'm so exhausted. and worn out. and broke. 
but all because i've had such an awesome time spent with u all
each and everyone of u who put in effort to give me those surprises 
and and all those gifts received
my thank you goes out to all of you for more than just your presents and presences.
i'm deeply grateful!


sorry, i've no pictures LOL 
but we really took some pretty crazy amazing pictures
hahahh :D
I'm grateful to my heavenly Dad that i could share this day with you guys


YAM SENG TO BEING 19TH!

Organize me.

No idea why i've been so blur and forgetful and.. basically just not in the situation these few days

although things already happened but i've no idea about it

until probably a few centuries later

i need a personal secretary..

aaanyway

today i am so thankful for His arrangements

for so ngam to have transport to the places i need to go

and also a super short queue to take ID photos today

though the ups and downs of disappointment

I was called next to take photo although there were 2 other guys in front of me lol.

i have no idea why

i'm feeling wobbly today

emotionally

but after talking to one of my best friends

yes i do feel so much better now

thank you!

and above all, keep my hands lifted to Dad.

Daddy please help me be more conscious tomorrow.........

open my eyes BIG BIG

on fire!


we can be excited to talk about music with friends of common interest
or the latest fashion
or a newly-released movie 


but do we have the same excitement too when we talk about our God?


:)

Me and my God's battle.


I needed to hear this spoken.
I needed to see this written.




our past have certain ways to get to us
past hurts and memories might still have one of its hook clinging on our sleeves
it will not 100% leave us
though forgiveness and reconciliation has taken place
from the smallest thing that happens in the here and now
might bring back some bitterness 
and stings us right in the heart again


'ouch, see? this was what happened. you did this/ they betrayed you/ you cheated/ she lied/ he hurt you at that time of your life.
here's a little reminder of how that felt just in case you've forgotten. are you sure you can trust yourself/him/her/them again?'


the little tricks the devil tries to play in my head.


but the amazing thing is
when we've learned to forgive and let go of these incidents that once hit our lives so strongly
by seeing how our God had done the same to forgive us more than 2000 years ago
we realize forgiveness is not ours to give
it was paid with the high cost of Jesus's blood being entirely shed
so that we may be washed clean 
once again to connect with God.
because of love.
His love.
and nothing lesser.


how miraculously it happened!
how overwhelming His grace!
how He loves us.


when i find myself deep down in a dark pit again
dwelling on the lies and sin and condemnation of the deceiver 
I could look up and see the very proof of love itself
displayed proudly for all to see
for all to remember
for all to know
how our God loves us
how He has never wavered or moved
how His mercy and grace remains flowing abundantly
all from the things done on the cross
that took our place down in that pit.


with power coming from the inside
I find myself rising above my circumstances and gaining courage again
NO, i'm no longer condemned
NO, i'm no longer a sinner
YES, i'm amazingly forgiven
YES, i'm forever changed.


and how it changes the situation around is,
Strength and courage to forgive does not come from me
it takes so much to really let down that grudge or heal from that wound
but who we were and what we've done or what they've done
is ALL taken away by Jesus
and replaced with brand new slates for all who believes in Him
I depend on my God and put my full trust in Him and nothing less
He is my strength.
He is my rock.


The Everlasting.


"Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for You are close beside me. Your rod and Your staff protect and comfort me." Psalms 23