take it!

Dad, i don't wanna touch, care, look, smell, or even feel it anymore.
please take it away.
i don't wanna let it take up my mind space 'cause it shouldn't matter
and it's not the slightest bit worth my time and energy to care.
i surrender
everything in the past and things that are yet to happen
nah, TAKE IT BA!


all is good, all is good.
(:



i feel better already. :D

The kampung boys.

whenever i go back to melaka, these are the scenes that i usually see
and about everytime it's the same.
everytime, the misadventures continue where it left off the last time.
the misadventures of the kampung boys. :D

a typical sunny sunday afternoon at Jasin, Melaka.

a lot of bikers there ;)

introducing kampung boy #1

..and kampung boy #2

their adventure list for the day is to
chase after innocent chickens and scare the life out of'em.
..and they spotted the perfect chick. xD




CCCHHAAAARGEEEE !!




look at them go




jared's weapon. haaa!




to cry or to laugh leh ?




the chicken flew into the kitchen and my uncle had to grab it out
i think they really scared the life out of it.
they can tick that off the list now.
heeee.




empty chicken coops









later on, they found something like a spider of some-sort.




it's shinyyyy.




called it a day.
time for cartoons!
xD

the walk of a lifetime.

ever imagined your wedding day?
have you ever fantasized about how it would be?
weddings are inspirational, blissful and just lovely.
God-matched couples united in Him, what can be a better view? :))

there're so many wonderful places on this earth, which place to choose to shoot your wedding photos???
if i were ever to have this dream come true, fly me to PARIS!
:D
a beautiful city, beautiful landscape, and a simply breathtaking scenery.
God designed it so uniquely---europe, europe, europe!!

let these photos take your breath away.

streets of bistro

a moment marked here to last

in the green woods

overlooking a beautiful landscape

europe at night :)

how supporting are these people?
joggers clapping hands to show their congratulations and blessings to the young couple.
i think people in malaysia will even tsk at you. xD

just golden!

*nudges someone*
yeah, that's right. you know who. xD

simply blissful.

[all the photos are taken from lightedpixel photography, i do not own any of these photographs]

there's just so much more to photography then just point and shoot,
definitely more than just for self-entertainment.
it speaks, it shouts out unspoken words, it sings, it lasts.
not a lot of things last,
but in God, there are things that do.
:)

amazing love.

i had a brilliant day yesterday.
brilliant because it contained so much meaning in it
brilliant dao i didnt even have time to blog about it yesterday xD

our MIF gathering yesterday was held at the Rapha Children's Home
we normally just gather among ourselves in church
so we could say that this was the very first time
we went out. :D

excited, anticipated, nervous, happy
what we all felt before arriving
i didnt know what to expect of the response from those kids and teens
and of course,
a block of ice stood between us and them when we arrived. hahh ;D

we played games, sang songs, had sharing with them.
we really were trying our best to break the ice :D
but i think the ice was really broken when all that ended
when we finally get the chance to sit and chat with them while we shared some snacks, haha

the person i remembered the most from there is an indian guy.
he's 16 and to my dismay he speaks fluent chinese!
he talked naturally and i asked if he went to a chinese primary school,
but he said no, and he learned the language when he grew up there.
amazing eh?!
He wore a shirt "JESUS HEALS"
he wore a cross necklace
he seemed polite
all the things that says "i'm a christian!" ahaaa.

i asked of his ambitions and hopes when he grows up in the future,
guess what he said?
he wants to be a pastor.
that was the first time i hear for myself that someone wants to be a pastor
i felt so happy for that dream of his. :)

i was scared & a little intimated to ask about his past
but God said, it's okay, go ahead.
so i did.
it surprised me
he was a victim of domestic violence since birth
together with his two brothers.
his father had beaten them up when he's drunk
never cared about them.
but thankfully there was a kind-hearted auntie in the neighborhood who took the initiative to take care of the boys for a year
then she sent them there and he had lived there ever since.
for 8 years, he'd stayed at the children's home.
i thank God for the heart of that lady
if not, i don't know who that boy would become today.

he came to know about the Savior, so real and loving.
that comforted him at that time of his life, broken and hopeless
he had found hope and peace because of Him ;)
he told me, "i really love the Lord & His words in the bible, that's why i want to become a pastor"
and i could feel the sincerity and determination in his words
and i pray, that this fire will never fade.
:)

he was changed now,
and because of the amazing Healer,
he felt love.
there are miracles in life, and there is healing in Him.
talking to them, especially my new friend :D
made me realize how fortunate we are.
with loving parents no matter rich or poor, siblings, freedom, and a place to call home.
a place to come home everyday and find dinner kept in the oven for us,
a place to lay in our beds at night and knowing that we are safe because of the incredibly loud snoring of dad next room,
a place to grow up with no fear. :)

and if you still feel unsatisfied with all that,
envying someone else's better life,
remember, you are already good enough to still have someone to call "papa" and "mama".
they're not orphans, no.
but they were abandoned by choice by their parents.
be grateful.
remember & thank the Lord!
He has such a biggggg heart to contain us all. :D

when it was time to go,
we knew we had to say goodbye,
but we didn't expect to say them that heavy-heartedly.
a bond was made
invisibly and naturally when we chatted and shared
we wanted to stay.
believe me, i almost cried.
you can't imagine the separation
although only a short 1 hour and 30 minutes
we became best friends. :')


thank You Dad, for showing us again, the greatest gift You have given us.

people that makes you laugh without even trying. :D

to describe the 3/4 part of my day today was boring & boring-er D:

amali was dreadful, and seem pretty much a waste of time

didn't learn anything at all at the last 1+ hour.

and the lessons were.. well just boring.

you get what i mean xD

i came home at around 4.45 & the first thing i heard was my 10 year old brother yelling:

"MA, JIE IS BACKKKK. ..Jie, you drive home ah?"

Ahahaha i couldn't say anything but laugh.

imagine the thinking of a ten year old.

their minds are still so naive & simple.

and they're so easy to be around with :D

he thought i went for one day & i can come home driving.

haha. i'm still laughing in my mind.

later, he so randomly when we were chatting

told me a shocking news. LOL

"Jie, i have fifty ringgit in my PURSE leh, do you know?"

"Where did you get so much money??!"

"..I stole it from dad because he left it on his table. ..during the chinese new years."

LMAO!

i had food in my mouth but i just kept laughing.

laughing my ath off. xDD

he's adorable really.

he says things that never fails to crack me up.

he doesn't even try to be funny,

but the things that he says just naturally are. :D

and my boring day turned to become better that much slighter because of it. ;)

i ♥ PHOTOSHOP.

it's so fun!
photshop is so fun.
it's the best toy an artsy could have. ;D
(second after my camera of course ;P)

i've downloaded a lot of brushes from the net lately & today i've just tried out making, experimenting, drawing, doodling!
had so much fun! hahaha.
wanna thank my awesome cousin sister Tammie for teaching me and letting me discover the wonders of it :D

i also wanna share my first doodle here
i hope you guys will comment on what you think ;)

"Doodle without boundaries"
:)
(kindly click to enlarge it for a better view)

why does He says "No" ?

We pray to Him every night, before our meals, before an important exam, or when we are forced to at church.
but i think we mostly pray to Him when we need Him the most.
well i do. :P
sometimes when i want to do something, that something has to go wrong sometimes
when i have tried all the ways to solve it or overcome it, and come to an end with no other ideas
i finally turn to Him
but still when i do, He answers me with a 'no'

why????
God, You say You're a God who listens to our prayers
but why at this time You tell me 'no' ??
sometimes i whine like a kid & don't understand what He wants me to do.
but what i've learnt is, don't.
don't whine.

He does answer ALL prayers, but sometimes the answer is "yes", sometimes it's "not yet", sometimes it just has to be "no".
He is the ruler of the entire universe, trust Him when He says He knows best :)
our faith needs stretching,
if we don't use it, how do we know how strong our faith really is?
it need of constant exercises to keep it strong! :D

it's a lesson to be learnt when we fail,
an experience to gain when we trip over,
on how to walk that path the next time in order to not fall again.
God is good, He wants us to grow everyday.
He gives us problems to solve and squeeze our faith juice out so that we mature in His way :)


i love this poem written by Graham Pockett,
reminds us of what God really wants to hear in our prayers
He loves it when we pray to Him
He loves it more to bless us with the things He has in-stored for us.

And God Said No

I asked God to take away my pride. And God said "No".
He said it was not for Him to take away, but for me to give up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole. And God said "No".
He said her spirit was whole, her body was only temporary.

I asked God to grant me patience. And God said "No".
He said patience is a by-product of tribulations. It isn't granted, it is earned.

I asked God to give me happiness. And God said "No".
He said He gives me blessings, happiness is up to me.

I asked God to spare me pain. And God said "No".
He said suffering draws me apart from worldly cares and brings me closer to Him.

I asked God to make my spirit grow. And God said "No".
He said I must grow on my own. But He will prune me to make me fruitful.

I asked for all things that I might enjoy life. And God said "No".
He said He will give me life, that I may enjoy all things.

I ask God to help me love others, as much as he loves me.
And God said "Ah, finally you have the idea!"

do you get His idea now? ;)

under the sea, over the clouds, through the rainbow!

okay my title's pretty random
but that's also not i wanna write about laa. heee.

today at tuition i was getting very very the sleepy de lo
it was as if my eye lids had magnets and were desperately attracting towards each other
i couldn't hold on much longer
& seriously felt like i was gonna fall "boom" on to the table any second.
then i made a quick prayer to God because i cannot afford to sleep in class!
"God, please keep me awake, keep me awake! In Jesus's name, go away !!"
i have no idea why i added that last part to my prayer,
but the second those words came out,
it felt like my tiredness were separated from my body,
my eyes flew back open (literally)
with the energy that could not have been coming from me.
so where? Him, of course. ahaha ;D

God is so good
He kept me awake & attentive through out the whole class after that
not even a single yawn.
see?
when you feel like it,
just cry out to Him,
He's there in the waiting, just one simple call of His name, and He'll be there. :D
Daddy is THE best.

good night. ;D

just got offline chatting with my parents on skype.
they're currently at shanghai traveling in a company trip. :D
they're coming back tomorrow, bai da way.
so yeah, do pray for their safe journey back!

he bought the fakeee iPhone made in China.
but of course not for any of us,
it's for my uncle.
hahahaha.

smile for this shot!

they'll arrive tomorrow
with our many many souvenirs
bahahaha
but pfft that's not the most important of course. :D
miss you guys a lot!
see ya tomolo.
:)

never underestimate.

am i hearing correctly?
my little brother is.. improvising on a song?
i cannot believe what i'm hearing.
right now, as i type.
although just the tiniest bit, but it's there. and it's in tune. and it sounds.. great actually. :D !!!
wow, i have never heard him play like that.
the MOST common song people will play on the piano,
even people who don't even know where's the C key knows how to play.
and he improvised on it.
now that's what a i call, amaaazing. xD

one of a kind?

teach me teach me. yes keep it coming :D

how am i treating others around me?
i know i'm not the funnest person to be around with,
i talk boring topics, i don't smile a lot, i laugh occasionally, sometimes i just don't feel like talking to people.
wow sounds so emo meh. xD
but come to think of how i sometimes speak pretty rudely to my friends,
used a hint of anger in my speech,
showed some impatience,
i seldom think of how that would make them feel.
but what happens if that happens to me? what would i feel then?

i know i've been so dead wrong all this time.
i feel like such a jerk sometimes
i don't know why i treat people like that. but God, forgive me!
thank You
for REMINDING ME that how i treat and talk to others, is how i treat and talk to You.
what i'm doing to others, i'm doing it to You too.
i'm sincerely sorry for all the hurt.
i'm gonna start changing now.
*hugs* thank You so much for the lesson, and please, keep it coming. (:



by da way,
today i also realized that i love cleaning up a mess.
ehehe.
after i'm done doing artsy stuff and made a whole pile of mess
cleaning it up is a kind of joy too!
so really
just do everything with your heart,
and it won't be hard at all.
=D

when i'm bored.

discovered a really cool thing today.

thanks to tam ;D

it kinda 'blew' my mind away because it was sooo cool. LOL

i want you guys to try it out too,

but don't stab me if it isn't as cool for you as it is for me.

heeeh.

1st step --> go to google.com

2nd step --> type in "google gravity"

3rd step --> click on "i'm feeling lucky"

4th step --> watch what happens

ehehehe. i think that's just so cool.

maybe because i've never seen anything like that.

this sorta things cheer me up

why be so serious and follow-the-custom all the time?

be different & do something out of the box.

also the criteria of becoming a good designer. ;D

here in my life..

Lord, when i cry out "break my heart for what breaks Yours"
let me mean what i say.

when i sing out "i will love You forever"
let me not just sing, but do it.

when my mouth speaks out "use me Lord, for Your kingdom"
let not only my mouth speaks, but my heart cries out the same.

whenever i sing "let Your will be done in my life, my God"
give me a humble heart to actually follow it, when the time comes that You tell me to do so.

Lord, let me not sing out in vain.
don't let me be like a poser, only worshiping You without a truthful heart.
only speaking things with my tongue and not my soul and heart.
Lord, teach me. lead me.
i am only human, i'm weak all the time.
but God, You have brought me so far now, i know You'll continue bringing me through all things.

"And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full. But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words. Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him" (Matthew 6:5-8).

i love my katil !

the nicest place to be lazy in this world is in my bed.

under my blanket heeee.

i didn't go to school today, but i still have my bm tuition this afternoon.

but before i go, i just can't resist lying in my bed for awhile,

and usually lying in my bed means sleeping de lor!

how can u resist? ;D

but because my phone is currently sot daooo dunno whats wrong also

no sound can come out of the speaker,

so if i set alarm to wake me also no use de lo

but i really wanna sleep wor?

so i telephoned Daddy,

"Hello Daddy ah? now i wanna take a short nap ah, please wake me up 3pm so i can go bath and won't be late for tuition. oh, and also, i left my pencil case at school, i dont know how i so stupid can forget that huge black pencil case D: but i did. sorry Dad that i've been so forgetful. but please look after it and make sure it's still there when i go back to school on tuesday. thanks a lot Dad! wake me up at 3, wake me up at 3.. "

then i drowsed off.

next moment i opened my eyes and checked. eeexactly 3pm!

aiyo thank you Dad, but hor.. i still wanna sleep a little while more leh..

so, if You don't mind.. wake me up again at 3.30 ok? hehehe

time flew so fast and i woke automatically again

3.26 ! the last time i check before my first nap was 2.26

Daddy let me slept for exactly 1 hour!

yippy! haha thank You so much Dad, You are just the best :D

p/s in case u don't know

usually when i sleep, i never wake up by myself without alarm.

Dad sings me to sleep and wakes me up Himself too.

*big hug to You*

hold on tighter laa.. ;D

oh yes! physicsbiobmchemishistoryaddmaths, i love you all.
please love me back in spm. please please pleaseee.
honestly just started studying a few days before this exam.
memang hopeless.

i just can't wait until the i hand up my last arts paper on the last day of this killer exam!
*singing* i can only imagine, when that day would come......
oh -_-
but seriously i wanna go places afterwards!
i'm sick of looking at kuantan.
or at least, the small part of kuantan inside my school la.
it's time to go out.
get some freshie air for nose after sniffing so many papers.
wooohooo, God planned God planned. ;)))

well okay
i've been wanting to post about this for a long time dy but clock won't stop for me, no choice lo.
so now just wanna write about a story that happened long long time agooo..

once upon a time, on 11th Sept (omg, it's october?!)
my relatives from singapore came to kuantan to visit us and to visit some sea buddies.
well, more of the sea buddies actually. ;D
they came all the way to kuantan just hoping to get a glimpse of the MIGHTY SEA TURTLE, at kemaman
they actually stayed there for a couple of days and thought they signed up for a paid tour by an unknown tour guide who turned out to be a cheater.
he tricked their money and never showed up.
what a devil. D:

so on the last day our wholeee family went together to the beach, at night, at the beach.
at first,
i thought we only get to SEE them release turtles,
but then the guy said "each one of you will be given one turtle to release"
i was so excited! hahaha
and lemmi tell you they're just beautiful~
only as big as the palm of your hands eheheheee

here's my cousin Dorcas, with her named turtle
(i forgot the name, but the name's adorable ahaha)
--carefully handling the little creatures.

we were given chances to snap pictures with them at the pondok before heading down to the beach.
the tour guide said no flash photography when we're there, because the turtles might follow your light instead of swimming to the sea. haha
so quickly took out my weapon and started snapping as much as i could
unfortunately only a few nice shots, but i'm still pretty satisfied. ;)

they like to be on top of one another hahaa

a little lonely over there?

Jared & Enoch :D

so beautifully designed by Him
each and everyone of these little lives.

so after a lot of clicks and fun with our new little friends,
we put them back into the box and went down to the beach.
it was so dark out can't even see where you're stepping, so had to be careful too.
we lined up at the shore as the guy handed out a turtle for each one of us
i don't think i got back the same one, but what are the chances right.
this one i got was a dry one, and it won't stop moving!
it just keep waving it's hands and feet as if demanding me to let it go now LOL
at some times i think i pressed his fragile shell a little too hard and i let go a bit
then it moved again so i grabbed harder again then remembered it may hurt so let go. ahahaa
i'm so sorry buddy :/
i think he was practicing his swimming for later, oh he got some pretty aggressive moves. =D

though the guy already gave instructions but apparently they don't understand english lo
and flash photography some more wor.
eh hello, respect for them please?
after everyone got their turtles the guy said "okay, now release them together ya, 1..2..3..RELEASE!"

and off they go,
my one was just fast and furious
like a rocket shoooooot he went!
ahaaa i'm so proud of him.
his practices paid off :DD
my cousins turtles were kind of the opposite, they laid stiffly on the sand
like they gave up already.
but soon the guy helped them through and they managed it.
i can't help wondering how many of these turtles will survive and have a chance to grow up
well. all is in God's hands :)


we headed back to the pondok but then i saw my relatives going for a second round
then i so happily took out my camera and followed them
because this time i get to snap hahahahehe
not easy at all to snap at night, plus no flash? oh. but it's not like i like to use them on other days anyway either so.. heee.
tried my best la,
could only snapped those turtles which the torchlight shone on
or else my camera cannot detect.

that's right, just follow the bright bright thing

off i goooo..

can't help liking this one. my favelet shot of the night. x)

aiyor, so cute.
side by side. :D

God's creations are just wonderful
how the mother lays down the eggs,
having going through the process of swimming all the way,
finding a good spot, digging the hole, giving birth to them then covering up the hole nicely again.
and God looking after them everyday until they finally hatch and going back to where they belong.
all according to schedule.
God is amazing eh?
there's just no one else like Him.

although we didn't get to witness any big sea turtles crawling to the shore,
but it was definitely an experience to remember.
would love to go back again someday with friends haha

besides, like what my uncle said: " you call yourself a kuantan people, but never seen a sea turtle before? Hu! we come all the way from singapore just to see them leh!"
hahaa my uncle's really funny, and he's right too.
how many of you kuantan people have seen a sea turtle before?!
aha, i knew it. xDD


love what He loves, look after what He created, protect them instead of harming them, and you'll see Him smiling to you from the heavens above. :)