I'm praying for you.

My dad may not be the easiest person to get along with. He grumbles and complains aloud whenever he feels shortchanged. He scolds and corrects the wrongs, right in people's faces. He gets straight to the point.

His temper may get the best of him most of the time but I thank God that my parents are married to each other. Why? Because where my dad isn't able, my mum is. Where he loses control, my mum is able to keep her cool and think and act with a clear head. 

Both of them are stubborn people. But that didn't stop them from coming together to talk about it like grown-ups after each conflict. It takes extraordinary Power to pull two people who easily repels each other back together. I admire my dad most when he can admit his wrongs and put down his 'man pride' to apologize. To his wife and to his children. He might not be ready to forgive many other things, but I'm praying every time that I can, that God will keep softening his heart day by day. Let the revelation of His love come to him that he'll one day fully let God to help him forgive. 

Forgiveness is what everyone needs because everyone makes mistakes. It might be easy for him to find forgiveness where there is mutual love, like in a family. It's hard to open up for healing to take place in certain areas though, when anger and pride has the upper hand in it. By himself, it is next to impossible to let that happen. But when he has seen and believed what God had done to forgive the ugly sins of human, I believe it will make him know that it's only natural and right to forgive others. 

So here's my prayer, that God's love will change him. For no one does a better 'heart surgery' than He does. I hope to see him becoming a Godly father by God's strength. And I will give my best to support and encourage him whenever I can. I pray that you will love God with all your heart again, Pa. Let him hold and control your life and see His wonders unfold. You can do it, Pa. You can do it.

It seems impossible but it really is true.

"When God's love demonstrated by Jesus becomes the deepest awareness of yourself --- that you are justified, accepted, and approved, and that you are a child of God --- when this truth falls into you, displacing all other definitions of yourself, then your identity is in Jesus and you are set free. You are not who you were. You are a new creation. You are the righteousness of God in Christ."

Buses and Family.

I was rather disappointed that the bus driver did not stop directly at pudu station again yesterday (not the first time)
and not only that, it was a completely new place to me where we ended up
after getting very brief directions from the driver on where to head to for the nearest LRT station
i got on my way and ventured on a completely new route back to PJ.
It just seems like I always have the privilege to gain new experiences this way. hahaha. so thankful.

Experienced Dad's protection over me throughout the trip back.
He sheltered me by stopping the rain exactly the time that I needed to get off for toilet break
while the minute before that I kept wondering if I should take an umbrella with me to go down
the rain poured once I got under the roofs
when I was done at the washroom
the rain stopped again, long enough for me to get back into the bus. safe and dry.
it's just through these little things that He do for me that fills my heart with great warmth.

today is my Ma and Pa's 20th anniversary too!
since I was home and lil bro had yet to begin his UPSR exam, we had a little celebration together last Sunday at a fancy restaurant.
They had had exciting years together, not to mention the additional joy due to the presence of their amazinggg kids :D
I'm deeply grateful and happy for this bond we share -- the way we laugh and joke, the way we are quiet too, and the way we understand.
Keep us growing stronger in Your love that wraps around us, God. Thank you for the times we can have together :)

Blessed 912 !

one of those moments

"We tend to judge others by their behavior and ourselves by our intentions." ---Albert F. Schlieder

Hmm..

it's not the end!

do not grow weary in waiting.
do not give up hope in God halfway through the race
because God isn't finish with what He's doing for and in You
the promises and rewards are only for those who faithfully finishes until the finish line
they will not fade, they will not be claimed by someone else.
because God will personally bless those as He has promised since the beginning



one of my favourite promises of God
:)

Isaiah 40:31
³¹ but those who hope in the Lord
    will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
    they will run and not grow weary,
    they will walk and not be faint.

I never truly set aside time to look back and count the amazing things Dad has done for me
I give thanks as I go.
after each prayer answered, after each road made smooth and obstacle moved out the way, I thank Him.
and many times they are forgotten very quickly. especially if they are small ones :p
but I would very much like to start now.

as soon as today began, I could already feel Him from the start.
on my way to the washroom I saw the uni janitors that I always do and never bothered to take a second look at, today I did.
she was struggling to pour the trash from the bin to another bigger plastic bag. 
it was hard to do it alone since the plastic bag wasn't really cooperating with her. lol.
unusually, I walked over to her side and held the plastic bag open for her.
She looked up to me, stunned for a second, and shyly smiled with all her teeth at me. 
I couldn't find the words to say so I just smiled back.
She managed to pour most of the rubbish in in just 15 seconds. 
I regretted not helping her all the way since she warmly said she could take it from there.
She thanked me and I walked off.
Did i made a difference? i wonder. lol.
but I thought, if I could just notice them and help them out more, the work they do will be so much easier.
they clean our campus, wash the bathrooms, make sure the bins are always empty, 
the least I could do is smile and thank them.

on a different note,
working on this HOA assignment has really made me dig up old testament stories kao kao. lol.
how the artist interprets and tells the story. versus how the story really goes.
I'm also thankful that its a channel for me to share about God. muhaha. 
as i explain about the story of the painting of The Prodigal Son to this friend of mine, i sneaked in some other stories as well and got her questioning. 
if it weren't for the extra time we had staying back after class,
I wouldn't have known about this part of her past. 
I hope to humbly shine some light of Dad into her life
hopefully she will begin to see.

children of the light, we have nothing to fear :)
every darkness trembles at the sound of His name.
I am very very able because of His mightiness!
:)


called to be like Him

Philippians 2:3-11

³ Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves,⁴ not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others.

⁵ In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus:

⁶ Who, being in very nature^[a] God, 

    did not consider equality with God something to be used to his own advantage;

⁷ rather, he made himself nothing 
    by taking the very nature^[b] of a servant,     being made in human likeness. 

⁸ And being found in appearance as a man,

    he humbled himself

    by becoming obedient to death —

        even death on a cross!

⁹ Therefore God exalted him to the highest place
    and gave him the name that is above every name, 
¹⁰ that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, 
    in heaven and on earth and under the earth, 
¹¹ and every tongue acknowledge that Jesus Christ is Lord, 
    to the glory of God the Father.

My little spring in the dessert :)


I am so easily discouraged by my bad attempts in drawing/designing
I see no use in continuing it if I don't see that it will become a good result in the end
simply because I'm tired of trying so hard
but I press on nonetheless
"you can do it you can do it. Just do your best and I'll be your support. don't look down on yourself."

why?
because
Isaiah 40:29-32
²⁹ He gives strength to the weary 
    and increases the power of the weak.
³⁰ Even youths grow tired and weary,
    and young men stumble and fall; 
³¹ but those who hope in the Lord    
    will renew their strength. 
They will soar on wings like eagles; 
    they will run and not grow weary,
    they will walk and not be faint. 

if you're tired in trying, just keep hoping in God. Trust and lean. hands off any other support. trust in only Him alone.