Midnight reads.

"The idea that 'being in love' is the only reason for remaining married really leaves no room for marriage as a contract or promise at all. If love is the whole thing, then the promise can add nothing; and if it adds nothing, then it should not be made...

...And of course, the promise, made when i am in love and because i am in love, to be true to the beloved as long as i live, commits me to being true even if i cease to be in love. A promise must be about things that I can do, about actions: no one can promise go on feeling in a certain way. He might as well promise never to have a headache or always to feel hungry...

...but of course, ceasing to be 'in love' need not mean ceasing to love. Love in this second sense --love as distinct from 'being in love'-- is not merely a feeling. It is a deep unity, maintained by the will and deliberately strengthened by habit; reinforced by the grace which both partners ask, and receive, from God. They can have this love for each other even at those moments when they do not like each other, as you love yoursekf when you do not like yourself. They can retain this love even when each would easily, if they allowed themselves, be 'in love' with someone else. Being in love first moved them to promise fidelity: this quieter love enables them to keep the promise. It is on this love that the engine of marriage is run: being in love was the explosion that started it. "

C.S. Lewis.

What to eat?

When there's a physical hunger you naturally look for something to satisfy it. You may eat almost any food because at that moment, it is enough as long as it fills ur stomach. U may not end up eating food that benefits ur body in the long run. But at the time, it doesnt really matter.

Then what happens when there's spiritual hunger? A desire in the spirit for something. Maybe it's love or security or acceptance or a sort of high. U may end up looking for it in a romantic relationship, material wealth, gossip, public attention, sexual arousals etc. It may satisfy u n u'll come back looking for it again the second time. But it gives ur spirit no lasting benefits.

God built in us that desire n only God alone can satisfy it.

Take in the things that feed ur spirit the best when u are hungry. Let it stay n brew in u and u'll experience the difference that it brings. The difference that no worldly thing can make.

what a strong prayer

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KsQwPDda-ls

I have built a city here 
Half with pride and half with fear 
Just wanted a safer place to hide 
I don't want to be safe tonight 

I need You like a hurricane 
Thunder crashing, wind and rain 
To tear my walls down 
I'm only Yours now 
I need you like a burning flame 
A wild fire untamed 
To burn these walls down 
I'm only Yours now I'm only Yours now 

I am Yours and You are mine 
You know far better than I 
And if destruction's what I need 
Then I'll receive it Lord from Thee 
Yes, I'll receive it Lord from Thee 

And it's Your eye in the storm 
Watching over me 
And it's Your eye in the storm 
Wanting only good for me
And if You are the war 
Let me be the casualty 
'Til I'm Yours alone I am 
only Yours I am Yours alone, Lord 

Work it!!

The harder it is to achieve, the sweeter the success.

Know this. Always.

if it's always calm seas and bed of roses in my life,
or if there's not much walls for me to break through,
not much bumps and holes on the road I travel on,
no falling or bruising,
then there's no chance for God's grace and power to manifest in my life.
All that He is, is greatly and truly shown in the darkest and roughest weathers.
Let no tribulation strike you down.
Let no difficulty take more glory than our God.

It's been a while

Just want to share with you some guidelines to measure your maturity in your walk with God here :) Bear in mind that none of us are already there, as in fully matured, but we are all learning and growing and moving towards it.

From 1 corinthians 13:13

1. Faith
How deep is my knowledge of God's word? Is my foundation of life found in God? And do I have a personal relationship with Him?

2. Hope
Do I hope for the second coming of God? If I do, I will have a kingdom mentality rather than a worldly one. Do I use my time, money and resources for His purpose or for my own?

3. Love
How is my relationship with other people? Do I enjoy being with them? How well do I relate and care for them?

Truly a wake up call for me when I received this teaching. So I hope it helps some of u too :)

This love

God, You alone shall be my source of security. Let my eyes not wander off too far from You. I know You've made me to be loved by You. Because You have known me before I was even conceived. It's a fact that nothing can change.

Before you start to be wobbly again about your identity, stop letting yourself envy the partial truths people are revealing about their lives.

Even if we only see our shortcomings, God sees us and all the reasons to keep pursuing us. Let a heart rooted in God's love, so saturated, be the most precious possession in your life.