tumblrifying my blog yes yes.

if i can change your mind,
i'd make you look the other way.

TIMELY.


a lazy friday afternoon.
scrolling through my own timeline.
one year by one year.. 2011.. 2010..2000..
only a few years, but wow, how most of my life events are marked down on facebook.
well, thank you timeline! 
haha.
one feeling i found stirred inside me is,
how precious time is, and the things i did to fill in that preciousness. 
some were wasted but some were definitely not.
i looked back and felt so thankful. that i was soaked in a warm family of God all the time.
i don't regret one bit of me getting myself involved, participating, working in church all the time.
just basically participating in life. and live. 
i look back,
and these are things i can smile thinking about. they were all so sweet.
not the number of church activities or accomplishments that makes me proud
but the fact that since young,
i had sooo many opportunities to do sooo many things.
and whether i realized it or not,
the things i learned back then comes to use now.
it may not have made an impact to me when i was 12 or 15 or what,
but it had shaped who i am today. little piece by little piece. they were put there in their own God-planned time.
and now, the pieces are still coming.


and yes,
i'm gonna welcome them. as much as i can.
so whatever He puts in front of me and says to me 'it's faith time again.'
i'm gonna say 'yes let's do it!' eagerly.
big or small. hard or easy. light or heavy. what or who. how or why. doesn't matter.
'cause maybe 10 years from now i'm gonna look back and smile an even wider grin!
:)
Daddy so amazing.
loves!

think less.

times like these i just wish that i can be one of those people that lives life quietly.

passes by people and hardly gets noticed.

gets to do things by herself knowing that there won't be an audience.

not surrounded with many friends, but the company of myself and perhaps a close friend is just enough.

easily contented with what she has. as little as they quantify.

walks with a light backpack.

i wish i was like that.

i wish i can be like that.

just pleasing God, with the small things i accomplish.

not worrying much. like now.

oh God..

help my little head to complain less.

i think too much. yes.

how abundant is this abundance?



everyday.
i'll draw from this bank account that never runs out.
never runs out of grace, mercy, love, courage, strength.
everyday i'll draw.

this is not going to be hard. this is not going to be hard.


at first thought,
tasks seem like heavy loads stacking up on my shoulders.
this very thought alone, makes me feel suffocated.
but then He reminds me again why i'm here.
doing what i'm doing.
i should feel so ashamed that i even think of them as burdens waiting to be ticked off the to-do-list.
but He turned them into a chance for me to be thankful.
trusting me so much to be part of His plans.
silly girl, these are opportunities u know! ><


He knows me so well.
most of my immediate responds would be 'no, i can't!'
so that's why,
He'll ask me the second time and third and fourth..
until i speak His will.
if He who created me already knows so well that i can do it, what other voices have any right to say that i can't? 

how He loves me. 






how foolish it is to base my confidence on someone else.


Dad, give me different oppurtunities everyday to deepen my faith.
stretch me even when i don't think i can do it any further.
even when i refuse to.
Dad, use Your gentleness to touch me and assure me.
show me Your greater purpose in the hardships i may face.




i really want only You.
no one should ever take a greater place of You in my heart.
none. zero. 
i know i'm not much and i'll forget to focus on You.


Dad, be my need.
be my joy and passion.
be the reason i love.
be the reason i work.
be the reason i wait.


Dad, hold this heart.
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it's something called responsibility.


a post to simply express.
from what i've seen happening.
God is constantly reminding me this, i hope it'll strike some of you hard as well.


relationships are really sensitive issues.
especially between a boy and a girl.
if you're not gonna be responsible for the way you act, then don't act at all.
if you want to start pursuing someone, know that your actions weigh a very heavy load of responsibilities.
once you start getting emotionally attached to one another, it's only going deeper.
please think far before you pour your heart to another guy, 
make promises to each other,
spend time together,
speak and act in a flirty manner with a friend of opposite sex,
when you know you are not ready to be responsible for their feelings.
please be more selfless and think about how your actions will effect another person.
don't do anything for a short term pleasure that will cause long term damage.


and to girls,
learn to protect yourself. protect your heart.
it's too precious to be broken by a guy who's just playing around.

the pretty people i'm blessed with.

:)