getting impatient?








12 Now we see things imperfectly, like puzzling reflections in a mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely. 1 Corinthians 13:12

slowly.


God's letting me know more about myself through you.
it's so funny.
because i only realize this thing about me after knowing you.
in most of the situations of decision making,
i'm always the one rationalizing everything.
what if this. what if that. is it really worth it? how are we gonna get there? should we really do this?


i didn't know i have such a rational mindset in me until yesterday.
always being too careful. always thinking too much. 
sometimes it's what kills me.
but other times, it's what saves me from making the wrong choice. haha.
wow right.
i'm still thinking if this side of me is good or bad.


maybe it's something that you do.
maybe it's in the way we talk.
but you let me see myself in a way that was invisible before.
still grateful for this lesson of discovering myself.
woohee :)

"hey, I love you."
"yeah, i know that already, God."
"but do you know how much?"


*tsunami of His love taking me off guard*




not drowning. but so intensely soaked.
:')

the first of the last.


i must say.
this sem break had been fruitful. 
every minute of it, i feel so contended.
:D 
by 8 in the morning, we will begin our last sem together in foundation.
let's really have no more regrets this time. give in our very best to score well, alright!
today had a tiring shopping trip to town.
i finallehhh. bought something i've looonged to own since.. i forgot when! haha.
God so good yay!
the pain and cramp is all worth it i tell yooh.




more good things to come.
:)

I kenot. I really kenot.



3 days and 2 nights spent in the deep jungle.
accompanied with crickets and monkeys.
i would've never expected things to turn out as good as it did.
i expected very little from myself,
come to think of it now,
it's so silly to be expecting so little from God as well.


without Him helping me through,
helping us through, we couldn't have done it. simply can't.
grace, mercy, strength, joy, peace, love, gentleness, timing, interventions, blessings, faithfulness.
His fingerprints all over.
how could i've overlooked all this greatness of Him?


come to know a few brothers and sisters in Christ so much better too!
especially to a special girl.
through teaming up with u, discussing and brainstorming together, solving problems together, had heart to heart talk together,
u just have such a beautiful spirit. i admire that so much.
u're beautiful inside out. just simply.
putting in 110% of effort in the tasks appointed to u. 
never once complaining.
always understanding of other people's weaknesses.
giving your all and very best to serve God.
a true woman of God.
:)
i'm proud calling u as a friend.
supportive nonetheless.


i thank God so much for not letting me give up on myself.
You're right.
and You've turned water into wine.
again.
:)

woohoo!
sem 3, i'm readeh for yooh.

worried sick?

Mark 4:37-41"A furious squall came up, and the waves broke over the boat, so that it was nearly swamped. Jesus was in the stern, sleeping on a cushion. The disciples woke him and said to him, "Teacher, don't you care if we drown?"

He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, "Quiet! Be still!" Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.

He said to his disciples, "Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?"

They were terrified and asked each other, "Who is this? Even the wind and the waves obey him!"

The God who calms the seas in a raging storm watches over me.

His spirit lives within me.

He is the One who makes my fears seem silly.

:)

" don't rush the process

Reminded while reminding.

came across this post from another blogger's blog.

reminded me in the midst of me reminding someone else. haha.

time.

" don't rush the process

skipping steps is dangerous

it's the process that prepares us and gives us strength to sustain what God wants to release to us

most people want the end result but don't want the process

God knows what He is doing

you are not gonna get results if you rush things

there is no time line
and you are not behind
stop rushing through life like everyone else
and embrace the season you are in and what He wants you to learn from it

it's always a trust issue
ultimately when we try to take things into our own hands
its due to our lack of trust in God

trust Him with the timing

in case you didn't know
He is phenomenal in opening and shutting doors

it is in the process that we grow " 

just another lesson.


it can be so easy
to be put down or discouraged by worldly results.
don't dwell in your failures.
don't let it consume your thoughts until you become unwilling to learn or move forward.


your grades don't determine who you are.
your slip of result with more F than A won't make God love you any less.
He will still lift your chin up and wipe your tears dry.
He wants to remind you, He's so much bigger than your problems
and He didn't put you here to go through it alone.


but first of all,
He wants to deal with your heart.
what are you letting inside of you?
your unworthiness? your scars? your past mistakes? your failures?


⁸ Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

Philippians 4:8

then no matter what life will throw at your way,

you can still stand boldly because you have these words and promises of His to overcome.

one of a kind.



he is the kind of guy, whom u cannot rush.
not in the literal meaning.
he's shy to speak up, slower to express.
but when he's ready, he'll really live out the Godliness in him in his very own special way.




funny how Daddy shows me details about people.
hmmm :)

to wait.



are u lowering your standards for something
simply because you fear you're running out of time?
or you just don't believe that something better beyond what you can see is yet to come.


don't underestimate God.
when He gives, He'll give the best.
not the second, not the third.
the best.


wait on Him.
:)


Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you.."

Sisters' night out.

couldn't remember when was the last time we did this.

but it was so good to spend time with my little sister again.

i cherish the time when

i can be so carefree and easy around someone.

:)

having a sister is just, great.

sanks :)

i'm aware that my blog and all its content is very close to my heart

i intended it that way :)

and i also intended it to only be readable to certain people

that's why i don't openly publish it. not anymore, after several reasons. hee.

and so,

if you're a faithful reader of my silly journal,

do keep all this goodie to yourself. 

i would very very much appreciate that.

sank you.

and goodnight.

c:

when i don't want to sleep.


one of the things i do is
look back at old photos and smile by myself.
weee. this is so healthy.

yes, i like to take photos of little kids.

don't judge me.

a picture that i couldn't believe i would draw, but i did.

D:

if you're reading this,

know that you're so privileged and special.

cuz they're not published anywhere else.

:)

the more attention you get
the more you're careful of what your actions will say.




we forget that attention can be so easily diverted by something else
that can offer a better show and feed their judgmental eyes more satisfyingly.




why are we striving for that?




just a sudden thought of mine.
no, i'm not depressed.
:)

here and now.


just finished uploading the photos.. from last year's christmas. wee.
2011.
a year that gave me an unexpected ride to so many new doors.
a year ago, even with my wildest imagination, i wouldn't have thought i'd go through what i had went through in this year. 
from the choice of my tertiary education
right down to every single amazing people i've come to know and appreciate within these few short months
is unbelievable.


couldn't have think of a better story to reminisce than this.
i'd look back at these days, and smile every single time. 'cause it was that good.
i've had my fair share of regrets and hurt
but they'll stay where they're supposed to.


i'm expecting great things from Daddy in this year.
as He's expecting me to become more like Him.


get ready.
let's go! :)