i'm surer than ever.

when people you know, asks you about what you're gonna study in the future, or your ideal career, what would you say?

would you reply without hesitant, firm and sure as ever and answer the other person?
or you could be a bit taken off guard and that brief moment of "umm" or "hmm"

well, i used to be like that.
i don't know but i was.
and for some odd reasons, i don't know if it's my awkward shyness or my insecurity of my own future, i erm-ed.

BUT now,
after some incidents that happened,
starting from today onwards, i know where i'm going. and i won't be afraid to say it out loud.
'cause it's my dream and imma CATCH IT!
no matter what your response would be. (:

aaaaanyway,
going back to what happened at school recently.

we're having the annual Hari Keusahawanan this thurday,
and my class is joining! *weee*
though it's a weird combination of excitement and fear, our choice was God's choice, too.
so i believe in it.

we pretty much signed up at the latest date possible, and everything's just crammed up in one big pile of mess.
i admit that we don't have time at all to go slow and plan things through properly.
because we can't, we seriously can't.
but GOD can and that's why we're doing it. ;)

today i was very moody and stressed out over the whole thing,
i guess my expression gave everything away and scared some of you. (i'm sorry about that!)
but a very very big thank-you to HUICHING!
thank you so much, though u maybe not even realize it,
but talking to you made me feel a LOT better, really.
sometimes u can be so moody too, but when you're cheerful, you cheer everyone around you. hahaha so thank you again. :)


we can't do everything with our tiny-weeny hands and tiny-weeny knowledge,
so i need you.
i'm completely weak without you.
thank you, for giving me abundantly.
& now, bless my right hand and flood it with inspirations.
and YOUR wonderful creativity. ;))

allow me to say " HAPPY HOLIDAYS ! "

FINALLY.

mid-term behind me,
stressed out school life behind me,
studying behind me,
first term of school behind me,
half a year of 2010 ALL behind me.

ok the last statement suddenly made me feel all touchy,
considering the fact it will SOON be over.
my final year in smkaa, and half of it is already goneee.


today was also su wen's LAST day at Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Alor Akar!
wow everyone was getting all 'huggy' and 'kissy'
grabbing every last chance to bid him goodbye and wish him all the best on his way.

i didn't shook his hand, didn't bid him goodbye formally, definitely didn't hug or kiss him LOL
but as i stood behind all the crowd, oddly enough, i felt like i am actually gonna miss that crazy-can'tevenspeakmalay-fat-smalleye china guy. :D

flashing back to the first day we met him, hahaha. those memories.
how could it have been a year already?
i felt i've been missing out on a lot of things, like i was shooting like a rocket across this whole year.
but the fact was, i wasn't.
because time was shooting, not me.

so this post is for you! Mr. Xiao Su Wen.
though i know you would never read it,
BUT

i sincerely wish you the very best as you go on back to china, to your hometown. :)
and God knows when' we'll meet again,
but even if we don't or amazingly we DO,
i believe God's guiding you every step of the way,
even if you don't believe it ;)

i'll definitely keep praying for you,
and oh,


DON'T YOU DARE FORGET ANY ONE OF US!
bahahaha.
'cause we won't ever forget you.



au revoir, buddy. ;D