You jump, i jump.

Titanic.
Awesome movie.
Heart-warming story.

At the edge of dying,
what would you be doing?

my favorite part of the movie
is the moment before the ship sinks into the Atlantic ocean.
when the scenes show what the passengers did the moment before they meet their death.

At critical situations like that,
it can push men to do things beyond their ability and senses.
things they never thought they'd do.
it's when their selfishness takes over and everyone is trying to save themselves
not giving a damn about other people.

but there're also another more "rational" group of people
gave up trying to fight to live,
but surrendering to fate.



An old couple hugging tightly to each other as their room is slowly flooding.

The captain spending his last moments with the memories he'd spent his whole life at -- his life on deck.

A mother telling the last bedtime story to her two young children,
whom she'll never see them grow up & have kids.

The group of instrument players playing their last and final song, the last song they'll play as a team.

All different kinds of love.
showed most when you're just about to lose it.

This should've been a movie i watch at the end of nextweek.
Bahh, i'm hopeless.


Physics, sparememylifeplease.

Mind over matter.

Tomorrow's the last day of October.
i still can't quite seem to convince myself that
there's only 2 months left in 2009.

honestly speaking,
2009 had been a great year.
and i have to say it's the best year i've had so far.
i've made new friends,
and became closer with my notsoclose friends. ;)
i'm really really gonna miss this year.

with november around the corner,
there's of course, still many things to look forward to x)
for instance,
the premiering of the movie i've been waiting for the whole '09
holiday, duh?
more time to learn more things.
and nonetheless
Christmas.

it's the most magical season, if i may say so. :)
not magical in the sense of mythical, of course.
but how that special day brings everyone together to celebrate it as a family.

everytime i hear christmas songs beginning to be played on the radios & televisions,
it just lifts my spirits up
and i can't help it but feel warm and comforted. ;D

last year's christmas,
we dressed up as "angels".
this year?
i'm still anticipated to wait and see.
=)

Angels we have heard on high,
Singing sweetly through the night.

A day to rejoice.
;)

Every sky was your own kind of blue.

Halfway through all the subjects now.
today when i finally woke up from my daydreamingworld
i realized it's almost the end of the second week of exam.
really?
yeah, really, silly girl.

after chemistry 2 exam today
there's supposed to be a lot of free time to study for bio,
but..
there's always but.

we filtered our garbage enzyme today for bio.
and it hit me,
3 months had passed.
three months.
three whole months.
92 days.
more or less.

see? the effect of daydreaming too much.
p/s, thanks for the p/s ;)

wow. the most pungent smell of all smellssss
banana! the smell just proves how badly it'll work
Lol, just jokiing.
our pure orange enzyme smelled,
well,
it smelled like orange. :O
its not bad,
brought one back home to see how it'll work.

mymindisblanknowthinkingaboutbio.
somebody shoot me please.

off now.
and p/s
waittherebyyiruma
is playing in my mind's virtual iPod now
:)

Helpless Aurora.

do.do.do.do.do.
verymuchlookingtowardsmyfuture.
socuriousofwhatwouldhappenin,perhaps,
5or10years.


Silly dreams.
This girl is daydreaming. again.
She has lots of dreams to dream
and dreams that are yet to be dreamed
but so little chances of it coming true.

sometimes,
she closes her eyes and drift away.
drifting further away to the-used-to-be's
maybe it's only in her thoughts
that she can fully concentrate




Just.
remember it, okay?
=)

Have some polaroid fun. ;D

English paper was terrible today.
didn't have enough time to finish my-oh-so-unforgettable-experience-essay
feels unfair.
but can't blame anyone else but myself.
Erase that thought.
it's over. :)

finally weekends, again.
the only time that i feel like relaxing, even if it's crunch time.
and this is definitely crunch time. =x

had some polaroid fun just now
with my e-poladroid camera, Lol.
Thanks lots to Tam,
for introducing me this fun gadget!
love experimenting with it x3

16th birthday cake

Smiiiiiiile for your life. ;D

Memorable & musical night =)


Vivivivivian & yours truly ;)


Father & daughter love
models : cousin Dorcas & cousin Dorcas' dad



Ring any bells ?
Inspired by Sweeney Todd : Demon barber on fleet street
Laugh out Loud.



Sparkling ribena x)




This is why baby's cry.
x)


Green, green, grass :)

Mif 's committee members ;)


KCMC praise & worship committee members



Dear Ah Ma =)


Yumsterss ;D




Photography addict



Sibling-hood
:)

freshnessfactorfivethousand
=)

It's here.It's gone.

Year-end exam officially started today.
Just finished BM papers today &
unsurprisingly,
the questions leaked again.
when can people start being honest?

Glad that one subject is finally out of my mind
& now can concentrate on the real deal next week.
Killer subjects. God bless me.

Tomorrow's english paper
and it won't be as stressful as..
'cause english's my favourite sub x)

overwhelmed.
my loves in life, and i can do them both at the same time.
i'm really thankful :)
this gift.
it's the utmost blessing from You.
You're the biggest comfort
though there's many trials.

Hide me now, under Your wings
Cover me, within Your mighty hands.
When the oceans rise and thunders roars
i will soar with You above the storm
Father,You are King over the flood
and, i will be still and know You are God.
Find rest my soul, in Christ alone.
Know His power, in quietness & trust.




How big of a comfort is that?
Find rest my soul, in Christ alone.
Find rest my soul, in Christ alone.
Find rest my soul, in Christ alone.
Find rest my soul, in Christ alone.


I can find rest,
In You.
although there's thunder storms roaring
I know i can always find rest in You.

You give endless peace,
and for that,
i'll surrender my everything to You.

Not my day.

Just came back from Malacca yesterday.
you can say that this was the trip that i snapped the most photos xD
hopefully will have a chance to upload them soon.

at the mean time,
check out some of the photos i took at Pantai Kundur, Melaka
on sunday.

click here!
to view some of the picas ;)

sunset time, and it was
beautiful.
no else words can use to describe it.

Careless girl.
it's probably what He wants you to do,
have a new start.
still very disappointed.
=/

Doomed.

Leaving to Malacca in less than 12 hours.
gonna be back on Monday morning
hardworking brother don't wanna skip school
xD

books books books.
first time i'm going on a trip and bringing school books.
Can't wait till this is all over.
Always dreaming x)


dot dot dot.
=)

She misses..

I survived.
but not for long x)

MiF won third place at the Mark bible test
a tie with the senior fellowship
Hahahah.
First place was MyF & second was..
my mum's fellowship of course xD

was a little disappointed
we really did our best
even pushed every single information that can possibly be drained into our heads before the competition
Lol.
but what matters most,
is that i got to learn more about You!
and that is satisfying enough =)

as promised before
the shoots. ;D
comment on them if you like,
i would appreciate it =)

Oh but, before that.
i wanna wish here to my younger sister
Ng Ruo Wei
in case some of you who doesn't know
she turned 13 yesterday
so..


!!HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!
=)

sorry that i didn't prepare you a present
-what an awful sister-
but i'll still wish you all the best & all the blessings from Him
Continue to smile & be healthy
=)

amazing texture.
love the way the sun shines on the leaves

i love to take sunrise and sunset photos at this angle
looovethecomposition


when i showed this to my dad, he said
"wah, this is my car?"
-_________-

Okay,this is my personal favorite photo of them all
this is why i love to take photos eyeless-ly
just go with your instincts!
love the perspective
x)

many ways to express feelings
i'm glad i have mine and
hoping that this passion is gonna stay as a big part of my life
Show me. A sign.

Saturdaysss

This morning
when i just woke up and went downstairs
i saw the morning sunlight shone brightly on my living room tile floor
it was beautiful
despite sunsets, i love sunrise too xD

quickly grabbed my camera and shoot some pictures
which i have to say i love it so much, Lol
will post it soon later tonight or tomorrow =)

am going to Mark bible test later in less than an hour
gonna compete against my mom whom is quite a strong competitor xP
scared & nervous
mostly because i always mess up the facts even i try hard to memorize it correctly xS

wish us luck and God bless us!
Go MIF's ~

xD

will tell you the good news
if we survive
>=)

Never thought I'd say this.

I'd never thought I'd said this,
but..

I LOVE TO DISSECT!!

Hahahahahaha.
Okay,
Tam, you were so right.
the first few steps were terrifying and completely disgusting
but then, it just gets better & better!!
OKay, this is gonna be a long post. x)

When we first entered the bio lab,
everyone was tensed because we'd all have to be rat killers today.
we were divided into groups of two and vivian(not-so-scared-scaredy-cat xD) was my partner

at first didn't even dare to take out the rat after it's fainted in the bucket of chloroforms
thanks chuan for helping me xD
i held the tail of a fainted rat around the bio lab.
and for me at that time was suuuuper disgusting

after laying it down,
we had to *gulps* nail it.
omg.
i was seriously praying to God to give me the courage at that time
i thought i couldn't do it.
but i did.
Thanks to shu wen also xD
felt the skin and bone right under my needle =S

and then...
DENG DENG DENG DENG!!
Here comes the ultimate inhuman procedure
dissect the freaking rat.
suddenly vivian became brave~
Thank God for that xD

she started the first cut.
cut once, cut twice, cut the 10th time
but still didn't get in the skin!
arghhh.
Then, our saviour came~
Chuan came and *tuk*
she cut right through the first layer of skin
waaaaahhh~~ she really is our heroin xD

then the second layer.
it's transparent. and can see into its organs
but without realizing it,
by that time,
none of us were scared anymore.
and that was when we started to enjoy ourselves. really.

then everything went quite well.
very well actually.
we took out all of it's organs and lay it out on an A4 paper and labeled it.
didn't felt a single bit of disgust xD

but when i thought vivian who wanted to dissect the rat's brain , she was crazy,
someone had already crossed way beyond that line.
they cut off the rat's
HEAD! AND TAIL!
omg. how could they be so cruel.
who else would do such a thing?
*ehem* so *ehem* danny *ehem* boy *ehem*
xDD

look at this if you dare. Mwahahah

Sorry, ratatouillle ;D

really was a great experience.
everyone actually wished they could do this again
luckily i could still eat my lunch after this
LoL
May all the rodents that were sacrificed today rest in peace
;D

God bless and keep smiling :)

Quality time :)

Mood swings.
Freaking mood swings.
it's annoying,
and sometimes i hate myself for having it.

even though this freaking mood swing constantly haunts my emotions,
this song somehow rings endlessly to my ears.
and i love it a lot.

雖不見你，觸不到你， 但是我知，你正在對我低語。
喔主耶穌！喔主耶穌！ 我深知道你一直就在這裡。
是你的手，釘痕的手， 重新撫慰，我那破碎的心田。
是你聲音，溫柔話語，
再度填滿我心靈中的飢渴。

although i can't see You
although i can't touch You
but i know you are still here
speaking softly to me
i need that comfort
Thanks a whole lot =)

There is love

Might or might not see it

Even friends
can't always understand.
no matter how strong you are on the outside,
you'll always need someone you can lean on in your life.
and i'm glad ,
that i do :)

I really miss those days
9th-11th June 09
the three days of great memories
inked in my heart
never regretted the decisions i've made
when can we meet again?

Pictures speak a thousand words

His way :)

Today i invited my China friend, Shu Wen
to join my church's MIF with me
well, actually
he was the one who asked me first
"Take me to church!" -Shu wen
in chinese of course xD

first i really needed to explain a lot to him at school
almost about everything about my church
i think he understood 50% of it .Lol

Gave him the address and his friend fetched him today
and for the first time
he was less talkative when he got there.
surprised me xD

and again had to explain what is praise & worship,
what is praying,
what is offering to him.
and just told him to do what i tell him to do. Lol

The station games starts and he seems to be having a good time
which is a good sign x)
and he said it was not bad when i asked him
and he also made some new friends there
hope he can join us again next week is he's free :)
he's a very very busy man. x)

hope he'll slowly understand and learn more with us.
God'll do things in His time & in His own way :)

On the inside

Few days back at school,
did something i'd never done before.

That is...

sneaking into the dewan makan asrama to play piano during recess
xD

Actually i didn't even know when did they moved the piano there,
since ah liao told me the other day and i was super happy..
on the inside x)

watched her play on the piano,
of her favourite songs
i've been hearing it so many times
and noticed how much she'd progressed
she was truly blessed
Thank You :)

the thing i hide most from people
is probably my emotions
and how i really feel inside
you don't know.
and i don't know how to say it.

i keep other people's secrets
i'm often the listener in conversations
i try my best to comfort others when they need me to
but who is actually willing to listen to me?
but i'm used to it
keeping it to myself
my emotions

but i'm thankful there is still someone
who is willing to
and i'm glad you're always there to listen
:)

Myclosestfriend